First, I have super exciting news...Robby started a new job today!!! It's part time for now and will change to full time when business picks up a little more. He loves it so far and I'm so happy for him, for us, for our future.
We move in the new house one week from today and my nerves and thoughts are just shook and spinning with excitement and anxiety. I can't wait for it all to come together! Life is finally paying off! I knew I just had to believe!
My eating habits haven't been fabulous with my stress, but they haven't been horrid either. I'm doing pretty good with my water and have only had "bad" drinks a time or two. I'm still trying to stick to Sprite/7Up when I "need" a drink that isn't water. My new goal is finding out what foods and places contain MSG and in turn are migraine triggers. Vonne is helping me out by telling me her experiences with this matter. I'm going to beat these medical issues...I'm a tough cookie and I don't give up easy!
P.S. Kates commercial just came on and I remembered that tomorrow (tonight) night is skate night!!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
That's how I roll...
I went skating last night! It was the most fun I've had in quite some time. I was a little shaky and only did a max of four laps at a time and then sat down for 5-10 minutes so I made sure I didn't overdo it. Overall, it was a great time and the only thing I'm doing different next week is wearing my knee brace, because my left knee did try to lock up after skating for about an hour. I can definitely feel it in my calves and lower back, which is a good thing, because I know I was working muscles and I'm not hurting and unable to move today! Sidenote: Robby skated too!
I got up this morning and was hungry, so I ate an orange instead of something bad for me. I will admit that I tried the new cinnamon pecan twist from BoJo's the other morning and I ate one and gave the other to Brandi, even though I could have ate TEN! I've came to the conclusion that if I have a craving 1-2 times a week, I should act on it for the simple fact that if I don't, I will end up eating everything in site that is bad for me and end up doing the wrong thing more often than not. I'm doing very good with my water consumption and when I've craved a soda, I have drank diet Coke or Sprite/7Up. I know it's a long road and I'm going to make it and be successful. I can't wait to get my bike and get to spend even more time outside. I'm so excited the weather has been pretty the past few days, because that hopefully means Spring is on it's way!
I do want to take a moment to reflect on a very close friend of mine's very sad week, that ties in with my life in a very real way. On Tuesday evening, I was greeted with the sad news that a friend of a friend passed away that morning. My heart ached for her and I hated what I knew she was feeling inside. I knew she felt empty and like someone had punched her in the stomach. I know you wonder what this possibly had to do with my journey. The person was 36 years old and he died from an apparent diabetic coma. The text I got begged me to take care of my diabetes because my buddy wants me to be around for a really long time. The scariness and realness of the situation affected me in the most deep of ways. This is what can happen if I don't take care of me. I know my husband, momma, best friend, family, friends and co-workers really like seeing my smile and would like to see it in more than a picture for many years to come. Major wake up call! I made a promise to my friend and I don't break promises.
I got up this morning and was hungry, so I ate an orange instead of something bad for me. I will admit that I tried the new cinnamon pecan twist from BoJo's the other morning and I ate one and gave the other to Brandi, even though I could have ate TEN! I've came to the conclusion that if I have a craving 1-2 times a week, I should act on it for the simple fact that if I don't, I will end up eating everything in site that is bad for me and end up doing the wrong thing more often than not. I'm doing very good with my water consumption and when I've craved a soda, I have drank diet Coke or Sprite/7Up. I know it's a long road and I'm going to make it and be successful. I can't wait to get my bike and get to spend even more time outside. I'm so excited the weather has been pretty the past few days, because that hopefully means Spring is on it's way!
I do want to take a moment to reflect on a very close friend of mine's very sad week, that ties in with my life in a very real way. On Tuesday evening, I was greeted with the sad news that a friend of a friend passed away that morning. My heart ached for her and I hated what I knew she was feeling inside. I knew she felt empty and like someone had punched her in the stomach. I know you wonder what this possibly had to do with my journey. The person was 36 years old and he died from an apparent diabetic coma. The text I got begged me to take care of my diabetes because my buddy wants me to be around for a really long time. The scariness and realness of the situation affected me in the most deep of ways. This is what can happen if I don't take care of me. I know my husband, momma, best friend, family, friends and co-workers really like seeing my smile and would like to see it in more than a picture for many years to come. Major wake up call! I made a promise to my friend and I don't break promises.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Tax Time
I'm pleased to announce that I did find Robby and I our first HOME. We're both pretty excited about it. We should get our taxes back in the next week and be able to get our downpayment and first month paid so we can get the ball rolling. The house is in Ranlo in a very established neighborhood that has been around for years and makes me feel safe and secure, which is super important to us with my sleeping problems. I've gotten to a point that I truly can't just lay my head down anywhere and go to sleep, which makes things rather complicated if we have to go out of town or anything. Luckily my momma's and his momma's are safe zones for me.
I will say that the stress of moving is taking it's toll on me and I am just so anxious for things to work out. I ate bad today. I had a roast beef sandwich and fries for lunch...pizza for dinner. Guess that's my cheat day for the week and I already used it on freakin' Sunday, first day of the week! Way to go Cris! Geez! I tried to do good the other day and someone stole my dang lunch at work...who does that?!?! Next food day, I'm bringing ExLax brownies. Jerks!
I must say this blog is truly helping me. Not only are people talking to me about something I've been so closed about for so long and making me more aware, but I'm getting awesome advice and support. Until now, momma has supported my choices, but it's always felt like a secret. At this point, I'm like, "Hey world, in case you haven't noticed, I'm short and round and need to do something about it" and the world is talking back to me. I've found that I can use comedy to make a tough subject alot easier to deal with. I can't thank you all enough for the comments, hugs, emails, etc...they mean more to me than I can put into words! :)
Well, I'm going to call it a night...Happy Valentines Day to the lovers and Happy Anti-V Day to the bitters! I adore you all.
I will say that the stress of moving is taking it's toll on me and I am just so anxious for things to work out. I ate bad today. I had a roast beef sandwich and fries for lunch...pizza for dinner. Guess that's my cheat day for the week and I already used it on freakin' Sunday, first day of the week! Way to go Cris! Geez! I tried to do good the other day and someone stole my dang lunch at work...who does that?!?! Next food day, I'm bringing ExLax brownies. Jerks!
I must say this blog is truly helping me. Not only are people talking to me about something I've been so closed about for so long and making me more aware, but I'm getting awesome advice and support. Until now, momma has supported my choices, but it's always felt like a secret. At this point, I'm like, "Hey world, in case you haven't noticed, I'm short and round and need to do something about it" and the world is talking back to me. I've found that I can use comedy to make a tough subject alot easier to deal with. I can't thank you all enough for the comments, hugs, emails, etc...they mean more to me than I can put into words! :)
Well, I'm going to call it a night...Happy Valentines Day to the lovers and Happy Anti-V Day to the bitters! I adore you all.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Insomnia is not my friend...
I can not believe I am wide awake at 630a on a Saturday morning (my day off, I might add). I might have to take a sleeping pill tonight to make sure I stay asleep my full eight hours. ::sigh::
I've been doing fairly well on the eating habits. Today I took a salad for lunch and wanted a lil' extra, so Berto brought me some teriyaki beef from my fave Chinese spot in Belmont. I put it in the microwave and went to potty and someone stole my food! Who does that?!?! What if I had to put ExLax in all my food because I had potty issues. REALLY!?!? Yeah, it's lame, but it happens around there way too often. I should have known better. I've found that when I need more than just water, I go for Sprite or 7Up now...still caffeine free and not as bad on my kidneys as dark or yellow sodas. I'm not going to tell you that I wouldn't give up a pinky toe for a Sundrop, but I'm surviving. My Fortamet seems to be controlling my sugar fairly well these days, as it hasn't been over 160 in a few weeks now (even through being sick). Hopefully I'll be able to stay away from the needles longer if I keep doing what I'm doing and lose some weight!
I did get my roller skates already and I'm super excited to get back in the rink. I guess even if I have to go alone, I'm going to go, because I know it's a great workout. I'm getting a bicycle in the coming weeks, so I'll also be able to be outside more (which will help my Vitamin D deficiency). Everything has double uses! :)
I'm going to attempt a few more hours of sleep at this point or I'm not going to be very personable for the remainder of the day.
I've been doing fairly well on the eating habits. Today I took a salad for lunch and wanted a lil' extra, so Berto brought me some teriyaki beef from my fave Chinese spot in Belmont. I put it in the microwave and went to potty and someone stole my food! Who does that?!?! What if I had to put ExLax in all my food because I had potty issues. REALLY!?!? Yeah, it's lame, but it happens around there way too often. I should have known better. I've found that when I need more than just water, I go for Sprite or 7Up now...still caffeine free and not as bad on my kidneys as dark or yellow sodas. I'm not going to tell you that I wouldn't give up a pinky toe for a Sundrop, but I'm surviving. My Fortamet seems to be controlling my sugar fairly well these days, as it hasn't been over 160 in a few weeks now (even through being sick). Hopefully I'll be able to stay away from the needles longer if I keep doing what I'm doing and lose some weight!
I did get my roller skates already and I'm super excited to get back in the rink. I guess even if I have to go alone, I'm going to go, because I know it's a great workout. I'm getting a bicycle in the coming weeks, so I'll also be able to be outside more (which will help my Vitamin D deficiency). Everything has double uses! :)
I'm going to attempt a few more hours of sleep at this point or I'm not going to be very personable for the remainder of the day.
Friday, February 4, 2011
The flu sucks!
Well, great explanation as to why I felt horrible since Monday night, I fought the flu for almost three days without knowing what was wrong (and trying to put off going to the doc). It took the doc less than five minutes to give me the results, yep, got the flu! Not too pleased about it either. My inner comedian says, well, at least you don't have an appetite! What can I say, I'm an optimist!?!?
Yesterday was pretty bad, I ate about three bites of a plain, cold baked potato and drank orange Powerade. I slept way more than I was awake and about 915, decided I WAS hungry and sent the moose on a food mission. Now, before I say what I ate, I'm going to say, I usually order twice what I got and eat ALL of it. That being said, I got a single cheeseburger, fries and a sweet tea from RO's. I ate about 3/4 of the burger with only one side of the bun, 1/2 the fries and there's still more than 1/2 the tea sitting here with me. The bad news is that is VERY bad food. The good news is that I kept it down and slept really good last night.
So far all I've been able to eat today was a sugar free strawberry jello (which I couldn't keep down) and one small banana (which I split with the three dogs) which I did keep down. I'm still on the orange Powerade, along with Tamiflu for five days and some kick ass cough syrup. The downside and worst part is that due to not being able to eat right, I have a massive headache that is keeping my nerves pretty tore up and boy, have I been mean!
Guess that's enough for now. Just wanted to update right quick while I had enough energy to hold my eyes open for more than five minutes. And since I did promise this would be real, my official weight at the doctor's office yesterday was 217.3. My first goal is to be under 200 by mid-April and you know what...I'M GONNA DO IT!
Yesterday was pretty bad, I ate about three bites of a plain, cold baked potato and drank orange Powerade. I slept way more than I was awake and about 915, decided I WAS hungry and sent the moose on a food mission. Now, before I say what I ate, I'm going to say, I usually order twice what I got and eat ALL of it. That being said, I got a single cheeseburger, fries and a sweet tea from RO's. I ate about 3/4 of the burger with only one side of the bun, 1/2 the fries and there's still more than 1/2 the tea sitting here with me. The bad news is that is VERY bad food. The good news is that I kept it down and slept really good last night.
So far all I've been able to eat today was a sugar free strawberry jello (which I couldn't keep down) and one small banana (which I split with the three dogs) which I did keep down. I'm still on the orange Powerade, along with Tamiflu for five days and some kick ass cough syrup. The downside and worst part is that due to not being able to eat right, I have a massive headache that is keeping my nerves pretty tore up and boy, have I been mean!
Guess that's enough for now. Just wanted to update right quick while I had enough energy to hold my eyes open for more than five minutes. And since I did promise this would be real, my official weight at the doctor's office yesterday was 217.3. My first goal is to be under 200 by mid-April and you know what...I'M GONNA DO IT!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Day One
I found that sitting in the house when you are fighting a bad cold and watching "I Used to be Fat" on MTV will assist you in facing some demons you've struggled with. That being said, I'm taking steps to better myself to insure that my future is brighter than my past. This blog is going to be sad, happy, funny and scary at times, but one thing it will always be is HONEST.
First and foremost, I have a food addiction. If I'm happy, I eat. If I'm sad, I eat. If I'm mad, I eat. You see the common denominator, I'm sure. There are times that I eat and then I'm so mad at myself, I just cry and breakdown. Then, I cheat for the rest of that day, week, etc. and tell myself and the world around me that I'm going to start on blah, blah, blah date. Well, tomorrow never comes in that case.
I do realize that in order to have any type of healthy lifestyle and happy future, I MUST lose weight. Not to be "pretty", not to be "skinny", not to be "accepted"...TO SURVIVE! I want to be a mom one day, but I can't be a mom in the health that I'm in. I must change for ME because I want to. If no one else does it with me, I MUST stick to it. My future depends on it.
My point in all of this is to hopefully persuade my family, friends, co-workers, etc. to support me and help me stay on track. If you see me with something I shouldn't have, call me out. If you see me with soda, call me out. Ask me where my water bottle is. Ask me what I had for lunch. Ask me if I went to the gym yesterday. ASK ME...HELP ME!
First and foremost, I have a food addiction. If I'm happy, I eat. If I'm sad, I eat. If I'm mad, I eat. You see the common denominator, I'm sure. There are times that I eat and then I'm so mad at myself, I just cry and breakdown. Then, I cheat for the rest of that day, week, etc. and tell myself and the world around me that I'm going to start on blah, blah, blah date. Well, tomorrow never comes in that case.
I do realize that in order to have any type of healthy lifestyle and happy future, I MUST lose weight. Not to be "pretty", not to be "skinny", not to be "accepted"...TO SURVIVE! I want to be a mom one day, but I can't be a mom in the health that I'm in. I must change for ME because I want to. If no one else does it with me, I MUST stick to it. My future depends on it.
My point in all of this is to hopefully persuade my family, friends, co-workers, etc. to support me and help me stay on track. If you see me with something I shouldn't have, call me out. If you see me with soda, call me out. Ask me where my water bottle is. Ask me what I had for lunch. Ask me if I went to the gym yesterday. ASK ME...HELP ME!
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