There comes a time when you
can no longer hold on to hatred in your heart, because it does you no good in
the long run. It doesn’t change things or the people’s ways that you’ve grown
to hate. Just as people can act in ways that make you fall in love with them,
those same people can act in ways that grow hate. I learned, funny enough from
a Madea movie, that forgiveness is for your own peace of mind, not the other
person. It’s your own heart, well being and conscious that will suffer when you
choose to carry hate rather than love in your own heart. The true meaning of
forgive and forget is just that. Don’t overanalyze it. Forgive the person, give
the grief and hurt and even anger to God and FORGET IT. Let it go. Don’t look
back. Looking back in life is like going to a yard sale and buying your own
junk back. Obviously there is a reason you got rid of it in the first place. A
person can only hurt you if you ALLOW them to do so. There are many different
things that you can do to let go of these inconsistencies in your soul. My outlet is writing. Over the years, I’ve
wrote down anything and everything that helps me heal. Even if it means writing
down things that I want to say to a person that I just don’t have the
capability to say, rather it’s due to a broken relationship or a restraining
order (LOL). I always thought my life would be significantly different at the
age of thirty, but I’m still learning and growing and I’m a work in progress.
Lucky for me, God ain’t giving up on me!
I’ve held onto to some hate
for quite some time and I’m venting and letting it go effective now.
I don’t hate you, I feel
sorry for you. You’re a liar. You live your life to make others feel sorry for
you and lie to get your way through this world. It should have never surprised
me to find out who you really are, since you are only a product of what you came
from. You cheated on me, you put your hands on me and there’s a strong
possibility that you even killed my innocent puppy. I will never warn anyone
about the kind of person you really are, since no one warned me, but I trust my
own heart that you will be brought to light. I feel sorry for you when Karma
gets it’s hands on you and especially come Judgement Day because people like
you have a rude awakening when that time arrives.
I used to consider you one of
my best friends, then I realized the meaning of a wolf in sheeps clothing. You
are the epitome of a backstabber. You looked me straight in my face and lied to
me and even hugged me and consoled me at some low times in my life. I’m
surprised my skin didn’t carry burn marks from being touched by a product of
Satan himself. The next time your husband beats you and you feel like you want
to die just to get out of the lifestyle you’ve chosen, you may know a
percentage of the pain you caused me along the way. A lot of people are finally
seeing you for who you really are and I know more will along the way. You are a
disgusting excuse for a woman and I don’t know how you sleep at night with your
conscience. But I do pray that you find in your heart the good person that your
parents raised you to be instead of the selfish, two faced witch you have
morphed into.
I’m the most disgusted by
you. Not only do you disgust me as the lack of a human being, woman and mother
that you should be, but you even drag your child into the chaotic world you’ve
created in your mind and bring emptional and mental havoc in her world as well.
You know personally what it’s like to lose your father, as do I, and yet still,
you create lies and prohibit your daughter from having a relationship with her
own father, who is an amazing man, regardless of the lies you create in your
twisted mind attempting to make him out to be anything other than the person he
truly is. You have done nothing but attempt to drag his name and morals through
the dirt since things didn’t go your way. The only thing he’s guilty of doing
is bettering himself by removing you from his life. You are trash, you’ve
always been trash, you’ll always be trash. And no I don’t just know what people
have told me. If you recall, as you’re so quick to tell others, we were at one
time, “friends”. You are a pitiful excuse for a mother, woman and human being.
You don’t deserve to share oxygen with the rest of the human race. I can’t
think of a horrid enough pain for you to go through for the things you’ve done
to others. And while you continue to spread rumors and lies about me, I’ll set
that straight to: he wasn’t cheating on you while you were married, as he and I
didn’t become a couple until October 2011, a full two months plus after you and
he had ended your relationship, prior to that, we were nothing more than
friends; he didn’t abandon you and your daughter, he asked you for time apart
to figure things out and you in turn moved out of the home in the middle of the
day when you knew he was at work to an undisclosed location for almost four
months, all the while he was calling your family asking to speak with his
daughter and they were “hiding” you so that he couldn’t make contact with her;
we were not stalking you when we found out you were at your grandfather’s
house, you tell your business to anyone who will listen and someone told us
where you lived and we rode by the house to verify the car was there so that he
could give that information to DSS when you were reported for parental
kidnapping; I understand that you like to tell anyone who will iisten that he
is a deadbeat dad and doesn’t pay child support, but what you fail to tell them
is that he gave you child support and you returned the check to him and refused
the money because it was a written check showing proof that he was supporting
his daughter and not cash that you could do what you liked with and not have on
record; I did not tell you that I would kidnap your daughter, so you can kill
that rumor as well, I did however state that he WILL have a relationship with
his daughter and you were making it complicated by not coming to an agreement
with him and causing it to be a court ordered ordeal; I am not expecting a
child either, since that seems to be your rumor of choice these days, even
telling people that don’t know me this one and they in turn asking a mutual
friend about it which is how it was brought to my attention, however if I was
pregnant, at least I would know who the father of my child is, so stick that in
your pipe and smoke it! Now the one thing I have been accused of that is truer
than true is that I told you I would be a better mother than you and that is
something you can bank on. Again, I can only pray that when Karma gets ahold of
you, I get a ticket and a front row seat to the show. You are in for one hell
of an eye opener when the dust settles.
I’m done ranting now, I just
had to clear these things from my mind and heart. I honestly feel better. Try
writing sometime, might just help you too!
